Originally you said I could postpone my plan,now totally changed my plan.No more accountant job ;better don't study anymore:;be a teacher....
I have to follow your plan: be a teacher for 5 years with having salary of $12oo only;wait for you earn more money to buy house n car;marry me;find a new living place;be a teacher and giving tuition......
While I can't change your mind,I must change my thinking.Otherwise,we'll quarrel again and again.I'm tired on quarreling on the same issue.What I can do is delete my plan and accept your plan!
Alright,can!Hopefully you don't control my life,otherwise I don't know how long I can stand it and do something hurts you.I have tolerated with it,please don't change again.Don't force me,I'll going to be crazy.I'm full of pressure of your hegemonic,I felt very stressful,can't even breath anymore.Please don't change again!
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Finally....
Finally,our problem was solved.Both of us just have to change our plans a bit,therefore the problem between us was solved.
After this incident,I realized that I must have more conversation with him.Sometimes there is something happens between us is due to my thinking of "I thought....".Mostly,I'm the one who hurt others.
When the hurt comes out,I only realize that I have hurt somebody else.That's my mistake and my fault because of not enough sensitive and understanding. I should think more and more before I make a decision or doing something.
I must thank him because he tells me about my mistake.Without his honest,I think I'll hurt him more and others as well.Now I'm trying to control my brain and mouth before I take action.It takes time because different situation different way to talk and decide.
I hope that I can make it.I know that it's impossible to please everyone but I'll try to minimize the hurt I bring to others.My friends,maybe it was late to apologize about my mistake.Yet I still want to say :I'm sorry,my friend.I really didn't meant it.If I have done something that hurt you all,I'm very sorry about that.
After this incident,I realized that I must have more conversation with him.Sometimes there is something happens between us is due to my thinking of "I thought....".Mostly,I'm the one who hurt others.
When the hurt comes out,I only realize that I have hurt somebody else.That's my mistake and my fault because of not enough sensitive and understanding. I should think more and more before I make a decision or doing something.
I must thank him because he tells me about my mistake.Without his honest,I think I'll hurt him more and others as well.Now I'm trying to control my brain and mouth before I take action.It takes time because different situation different way to talk and decide.
I hope that I can make it.I know that it's impossible to please everyone but I'll try to minimize the hurt I bring to others.My friends,maybe it was late to apologize about my mistake.Yet I still want to say :I'm sorry,my friend.I really didn't meant it.If I have done something that hurt you all,I'm very sorry about that.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Behind my plan
My 1st plan have done,what I can do now is waiting for my next year and start studying.
Yet,my decision for studying ACCA course brought a new problem between me and him.
In my plan,after I study for 5 months and pass the 1st paper,then I'll start to find an accountant job.I want to learn how to do the account things while I'm studying it ,I think it'll be very helpful in my future career.
If I can do well in my ACCA course and very interested in doing accounts,then I go further to reach higher level.But this is just my expectation,maybe I can't make it and give up in half way.
If I really being an accountant,I do not have much time to be with him because of different off days.
He felt very upset when I told him about my plan and my expectation.He wants to be with me always,see each other always,go shopping and watching movies together.....
Maybe I have given him wrong meaning and wrong information,so he thought I didn't care about our relationship and future happy memories.Actually I do care about it,but I didn't show it through my face.I hope I can balance my love and career at the same time,but I know sometimes I have to sacrifice something when I want to get something.
I thought as our love is still there,no matter how short time we can be with each other,our relationship will not getting worse also.But he was afraid that we would getting far apart from each other as we were busy with our own career relatively.
My study schedule crushed his off days.In short,my plan ruined his plan.He asked me whether I can be a teacher but not an accountant.Teachers have a lot of holidays,so he has much time to travel with me and being with me always.I understand his meaning,but I have paid the fee.Can I give up without trying?I just want to try a different working area since I'm still young and still have the passion on trying new things.If I realize that I'm not suit in doing accountant job,I still can go away from it and find another job.
Being a teacher is okay to me because I have experience in teaching and I love to share my knowledge with the kids.Furthermore teachers have a lot of holidays as well,can do many things as they like.He asked me why don't I take teacher training course.If I being a teacher,I have to take part time teacher training course,when the rest having school holidays,I have to study.That means I do not have school holidays until I pass the training course.
I didn't tell him about what'll happen if I take teacher training course because my mind was stuck. If I tell him more,more problem will come out.
I want to have my career,but I don't want to lose him at the same time,can I? I know there will be a way to solve this problem,but this time I really have no idea and helpless.
Yet,my decision for studying ACCA course brought a new problem between me and him.
In my plan,after I study for 5 months and pass the 1st paper,then I'll start to find an accountant job.I want to learn how to do the account things while I'm studying it ,I think it'll be very helpful in my future career.
If I can do well in my ACCA course and very interested in doing accounts,then I go further to reach higher level.But this is just my expectation,maybe I can't make it and give up in half way.
If I really being an accountant,I do not have much time to be with him because of different off days.
He felt very upset when I told him about my plan and my expectation.He wants to be with me always,see each other always,go shopping and watching movies together.....
Maybe I have given him wrong meaning and wrong information,so he thought I didn't care about our relationship and future happy memories.Actually I do care about it,but I didn't show it through my face.I hope I can balance my love and career at the same time,but I know sometimes I have to sacrifice something when I want to get something.
I thought as our love is still there,no matter how short time we can be with each other,our relationship will not getting worse also.But he was afraid that we would getting far apart from each other as we were busy with our own career relatively.
My study schedule crushed his off days.In short,my plan ruined his plan.He asked me whether I can be a teacher but not an accountant.Teachers have a lot of holidays,so he has much time to travel with me and being with me always.I understand his meaning,but I have paid the fee.Can I give up without trying?I just want to try a different working area since I'm still young and still have the passion on trying new things.If I realize that I'm not suit in doing accountant job,I still can go away from it and find another job.
Being a teacher is okay to me because I have experience in teaching and I love to share my knowledge with the kids.Furthermore teachers have a lot of holidays as well,can do many things as they like.He asked me why don't I take teacher training course.If I being a teacher,I have to take part time teacher training course,when the rest having school holidays,I have to study.That means I do not have school holidays until I pass the training course.
I didn't tell him about what'll happen if I take teacher training course because my mind was stuck. If I tell him more,more problem will come out.
I want to have my career,but I don't want to lose him at the same time,can I? I know there will be a way to solve this problem,but this time I really have no idea and helpless.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
a lot of plan....
I have a lot of plan got to do...
1. Application for the ACCA ( document preparation and bankdraft)
2. Check out whether I can apply PTPTN loan for my ACCA course ( if can,hohoho,so good,man~!)
3. Earning more money for my daily expenses
4. Find a part time job ( if I have extra time)
The next two plans are not so important,but I guess I'll do it if I have extra money,hehehe~
5. Wisdom teeth extraction ( I have 4 wisdom teeth, but the dentist said it was not necessarily to extract them)
6. Get a new look of myself~!
Hahahaha...
1. Application for the ACCA ( document preparation and bankdraft)
2. Check out whether I can apply PTPTN loan for my ACCA course ( if can,hohoho,so good,man~!)
3. Earning more money for my daily expenses
4. Find a part time job ( if I have extra time)
The next two plans are not so important,but I guess I'll do it if I have extra money,hehehe~
5. Wisdom teeth extraction ( I have 4 wisdom teeth, but the dentist said it was not necessarily to extract them)
6. Get a new look of myself~!
Hahahaha...
Thursday, November 19, 2009
纯粹发泄
现在的孩子们喜欢聊天，就算只是废话，也能聊到天南地北。。。当然我也会如此，不同的是我会看场合。
然而80后的孩子好像少了些自制和自律，当然不是每个孩子都这样。。。但是我遇到的好像几乎都那样子，看到他们的行为有时候真的是幼稚得可以，不知道应该觉得好气还是好笑。。。
看到他们仿佛每天在挑战我的容忍限度，有时真的觉得很累，好像比照顾小朋友还累。也许我跟现在的青少年格格不入，跟他们没缘份；不管我怎么说，感觉就像丢石入海，就听到‘嗵’一声，过后就不了了之了。。。
之前我还会为他们现在的性格会导致他们未来的生活如何，而感到苦恼；现在回想起来，论身份，我还没有那个资格，因为我只是他们的过客。
他们的生活应该由他们自己负责任，我已经尽了一位老师应该尽的本分和责任。我对我的工作负责任，至于他们，就要看他们自己的造化了。
然而80后的孩子好像少了些自制和自律，当然不是每个孩子都这样。。。但是我遇到的好像几乎都那样子，看到他们的行为有时候真的是幼稚得可以，不知道应该觉得好气还是好笑。。。
看到他们仿佛每天在挑战我的容忍限度，有时真的觉得很累，好像比照顾小朋友还累。也许我跟现在的青少年格格不入，跟他们没缘份；不管我怎么说，感觉就像丢石入海，就听到‘嗵’一声，过后就不了了之了。。。
之前我还会为他们现在的性格会导致他们未来的生活如何，而感到苦恼；现在回想起来，论身份，我还没有那个资格，因为我只是他们的过客。
他们的生活应该由他们自己负责任，我已经尽了一位老师应该尽的本分和责任。我对我的工作负责任，至于他们，就要看他们自己的造化了。
Friday, October 9, 2009
Headache....
Originally I have chosen the LCCI for my study course,but there is no LCCI course in the college which I wish to study. So,ACCA and ICSA will be my next choice....
Mathematics is included in ACCA,but I have no account basic skill...I doubt whether I can handle it...ICSA is about business management,business law,business accounting,etc...sounds not bad...Oh,gosh~! I don't know how to choose....T.T
I heard that ACCA is a tough subject...I have been threw my school bag almost 1 year,I don't know whether I can catch up what lecturers teach and those tough lessons...Yet no doubt that no matter what course I take,I still have to put a lot of efforts and super-duper hardworking on it...
Hopefully I'll not give up easily when I confront a lot of problems and obstacles...Please take the laziness away from me,I don't want to fail my studies and my papers because of it....VICKY,you must be STRONG ~!
Mathematics is included in ACCA,but I have no account basic skill...I doubt whether I can handle it...ICSA is about business management,business law,business accounting,etc...sounds not bad...Oh,gosh~! I don't know how to choose....T.T
I heard that ACCA is a tough subject...I have been threw my school bag almost 1 year,I don't know whether I can catch up what lecturers teach and those tough lessons...Yet no doubt that no matter what course I take,I still have to put a lot of efforts and super-duper hardworking on it...
Hopefully I'll not give up easily when I confront a lot of problems and obstacles...Please take the laziness away from me,I don't want to fail my studies and my papers because of it....VICKY,you must be STRONG ~!
Thursday, October 8, 2009
适当地当聋子
我阅读过一篇短故事，题目是《适当地当聋子》，读后感的感觉不错，想在这里分享下。。。
从前，有一群青蛙，组织了一场攀爬比赛，比赛的终点是一座非常高的塔尖。一大群青蛙围着铁塔看比赛，给他们加油。比赛开始了，老实说，群蛙中没有谁相信这些小小的青蛙会到达塔尖，他们都在议论纷纷：
“这太难了！他们肯定到达不了塔顶！他们绝对不能成功的，塔太高了！”
听到这些，一只又一只的青蛙开始泄气了，除了那些情绪高涨的几只还在往上爬。群蛙继续喊着：“这太难了！没有谁能爬上塔顶的！” 越来越多的青蛙累坏了，退出了比赛。
但是，有一只却还在爬，而且还越爬越高，一点没有放弃的意思。最后，其他所有的青蛙都推出了比赛，除了一只，它费了很大的劲儿，终于成为唯一一只到达塔顶的胜利者。
很自然地，其他所有的青蛙都想知道它是怎么成功的。有一只青蛙跑上前去问那只胜利者，它哪来那么大的力气跑完全程的？它发现这只青蛙是个聋子！
这个故事告诉我们的是：永远不要听信那些习惯消极悲观看问题的人！因为他们只会粉碎你内心最美好的梦想与希望。而且，最重要的是：当有人告诉你，你的梦想不可能成真时，你要变成“聋子”，对此充耳不闻，要总是想着：我一定能做到！
这个故事启发了我，而且我还把这个想法运用在教学上。上课时，学生们对我的教学充耳不闻，跟朋友谈天说地，分享些有的没的。。。也许我的教学太沉闷了，让他们没有听下去的耐心，这个我能理解，因为当年的我也跟他们一样，对老师的态度不好。当下总算体会到了当初老师的感受了，现在受到同样的对待了，真是活该！
当他们无视我的存在时，我必须冷静，并且对自己说：我是聋子，也是瞎子；对他们眼前的所作所为视而不见，听而不闻，继续我的教学，不要为了他们几个而耽误了想要学习的学生们。。。然而，容忍总会有个限度，当他们的声量已经盖过我的声音时，我唯有训斥他们一顿，才能完成教学，否则进度将会被拖慢。有时候真希望我的情绪智商能够高些，这样就为不会这些事气坏自己，让自己难过。。。
我能做的都已经做了，尽我所能为学生解释与解答问题，若他们不领情，我也没办法。。。其实我只是打工仔，教所有的东西给他们，不管他们明不明白，教就是了！反正我的薪水照领，损失的不是我，而是他们！
本来我可以这样做，可是不认真对待我的工作不是我的作风，所以再怎么辛苦，我都要尽我的本份，教会学生知识以及人生道理。。。要我眼睁睁看着他们承担严重的后果，我于心不忍。。。除非我的内心已经达到了“哀莫大于心死”的状态，对他们彻底失望了，我才会任由他们，不再干涉他们的生活。。。
我的上司在我刚工作的时候，就告诉我，这班学生的确不容易教，但是hang in there啦~当时我点头，告诉上司我会尽我的能力。。。现在我的耐性几乎每天被挑战着，被磨光着；最怕我忍无可忍了，就要hang there 了。。。
从前，有一群青蛙，组织了一场攀爬比赛，比赛的终点是一座非常高的塔尖。一大群青蛙围着铁塔看比赛，给他们加油。比赛开始了，老实说，群蛙中没有谁相信这些小小的青蛙会到达塔尖，他们都在议论纷纷：
“这太难了！他们肯定到达不了塔顶！他们绝对不能成功的，塔太高了！”
听到这些，一只又一只的青蛙开始泄气了，除了那些情绪高涨的几只还在往上爬。群蛙继续喊着：“这太难了！没有谁能爬上塔顶的！” 越来越多的青蛙累坏了，退出了比赛。
但是，有一只却还在爬，而且还越爬越高，一点没有放弃的意思。最后，其他所有的青蛙都推出了比赛，除了一只，它费了很大的劲儿，终于成为唯一一只到达塔顶的胜利者。
很自然地，其他所有的青蛙都想知道它是怎么成功的。有一只青蛙跑上前去问那只胜利者，它哪来那么大的力气跑完全程的？它发现这只青蛙是个聋子！
这个故事告诉我们的是：永远不要听信那些习惯消极悲观看问题的人！因为他们只会粉碎你内心最美好的梦想与希望。而且，最重要的是：当有人告诉你，你的梦想不可能成真时，你要变成“聋子”，对此充耳不闻，要总是想着：我一定能做到！
这个故事启发了我，而且我还把这个想法运用在教学上。上课时，学生们对我的教学充耳不闻，跟朋友谈天说地，分享些有的没的。。。也许我的教学太沉闷了，让他们没有听下去的耐心，这个我能理解，因为当年的我也跟他们一样，对老师的态度不好。当下总算体会到了当初老师的感受了，现在受到同样的对待了，真是活该！
当他们无视我的存在时，我必须冷静，并且对自己说：我是聋子，也是瞎子；对他们眼前的所作所为视而不见，听而不闻，继续我的教学，不要为了他们几个而耽误了想要学习的学生们。。。然而，容忍总会有个限度，当他们的声量已经盖过我的声音时，我唯有训斥他们一顿，才能完成教学，否则进度将会被拖慢。有时候真希望我的情绪智商能够高些，这样就为不会这些事气坏自己，让自己难过。。。
我能做的都已经做了，尽我所能为学生解释与解答问题，若他们不领情，我也没办法。。。其实我只是打工仔，教所有的东西给他们，不管他们明不明白，教就是了！反正我的薪水照领，损失的不是我，而是他们！
本来我可以这样做，可是不认真对待我的工作不是我的作风，所以再怎么辛苦，我都要尽我的本份，教会学生知识以及人生道理。。。要我眼睁睁看着他们承担严重的后果，我于心不忍。。。除非我的内心已经达到了“哀莫大于心死”的状态，对他们彻底失望了，我才会任由他们，不再干涉他们的生活。。。
我的上司在我刚工作的时候，就告诉我，这班学生的确不容易教，但是hang in there啦~当时我点头，告诉上司我会尽我的能力。。。现在我的耐性几乎每天被挑战着，被磨光着；最怕我忍无可忍了，就要hang there 了。。。
选择
选择；
当你有选择的时候，你偶尔会为眼前的选择而苦恼，因为你不知道你这个所谓的选择到底是对还是错；需要承担怎样的后果；会有多少的反对声音围绕着你。。。
相反的，你毫无选择的时候，唯有向前走，也许那条路不是你所想要的，但是当你走到末端，回头一看，就会发现当初的不甘心，不情愿已经烟消云散，换来的却是你当初从没想过的成就感与优越感。。。
当然，也会有例外的时候。选择不一定只有对或错，只有一个信念：既然选择了，就不妨试试看，说不定会有另一番新的景象。
有些时候别把自己捆得死死的，尝试新的事物对某些人来说，的确是很困难，因为要从零开始。。。但是一旦你踏出了第一步，走着走着，你忽然有种不同的感觉，原来学习新事物，充实自己也是个不错的尝试。
我就是如此，想当初，我的选择是读学院，修我一直想念的心理学；但是碍于学费和生活费的问题，所以就选择了读中六，凭自己的能力进入本地大学，减少家里的经济负担。。。当初的确是有点不愿意读中六，可是读着读着，去发现了一些乐趣。虽然生活不像学院生般的多姿多彩，但是也能从学习中找到了乐趣，体验不一样的学习生涯。。。
现在我回头一看，当初的不情愿，仿佛尘埃，已看不到，摸不到，感觉不到了。。。
对我来说，有选择不一定是好的，因为我的耳根软，很容易受别人影响。。。让我本来已经选择好的东西，又临时变卦，越多的提议，越多的声音让我越困扰。。。到头来我还是回到原点，选择当初一开始所想的。。。
人生就是这样，兜兜转转，还是回到了原点。。。也许会因此花费了不少的时间，但是只要是值得的，过去所浪费过的时间就当作是磨练自己的历程，把握当下，提升自己的战斗力，为自己的人生画上不一样的色彩。
当你有选择的时候，你偶尔会为眼前的选择而苦恼，因为你不知道你这个所谓的选择到底是对还是错；需要承担怎样的后果；会有多少的反对声音围绕着你。。。
相反的，你毫无选择的时候，唯有向前走，也许那条路不是你所想要的，但是当你走到末端，回头一看，就会发现当初的不甘心，不情愿已经烟消云散，换来的却是你当初从没想过的成就感与优越感。。。
当然，也会有例外的时候。选择不一定只有对或错，只有一个信念：既然选择了，就不妨试试看，说不定会有另一番新的景象。
有些时候别把自己捆得死死的，尝试新的事物对某些人来说，的确是很困难，因为要从零开始。。。但是一旦你踏出了第一步，走着走着，你忽然有种不同的感觉，原来学习新事物，充实自己也是个不错的尝试。
我就是如此，想当初，我的选择是读学院，修我一直想念的心理学；但是碍于学费和生活费的问题，所以就选择了读中六，凭自己的能力进入本地大学，减少家里的经济负担。。。当初的确是有点不愿意读中六，可是读着读着，去发现了一些乐趣。虽然生活不像学院生般的多姿多彩，但是也能从学习中找到了乐趣，体验不一样的学习生涯。。。
现在我回头一看，当初的不情愿，仿佛尘埃，已看不到，摸不到，感觉不到了。。。
对我来说，有选择不一定是好的，因为我的耳根软，很容易受别人影响。。。让我本来已经选择好的东西，又临时变卦，越多的提议，越多的声音让我越困扰。。。到头来我还是回到原点，选择当初一开始所想的。。。
人生就是这样，兜兜转转，还是回到了原点。。。也许会因此花费了不少的时间，但是只要是值得的，过去所浪费过的时间就当作是磨练自己的历程，把握当下，提升自己的战斗力，为自己的人生画上不一样的色彩。
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